(shhhh....i try so hard to fill up my emptiness...i cooked, almost exploding the kitchen, i walked the streets until there was no one interested in me, i slept in any random dickless places, i talked to old people until they got annoyed, i jumped until my hands shooked, i screamed until i was voiceless, i walked until i felt into the ditch; i cut until the blood flowed forever, i jumped until there was no ground, i burned forever, no not because of you jesus, but because you hate me)